I am so excited to have Katheen L. Maher here today to share a Genesis 5020 with you. It is truly beautiful and another picture of God’s goodness. Take the time to read it and be blessed. She has a giveaway for you at the end.
Genesis 50:20 But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive.
I was a pregnant teen.
I had dropped out of college less than one year after being assured the world was my oyster after graduating 7th in my high school class. My grades had always been great, my teachers had always thought highly of me. I never did drugs or smoked, never got drunk. And up to then, I had guarded my virtue. But one rough semester away at Christian college where my social phobias and anxieties wreaked havoc led to a desperate attempt at love and security—and there I was at nineteen, pregnant and alone. And scared.
I had been advised to abort, to take back my life and pursue my goals. Who was I to presume to care for another human being? My world looked limited, impoverished. My former faith mocked me. I could never provide a child the life it deserved. But my heart wilted and hemorrhaged to think of separating myself from this life growing inside of me. It had become a part of ME, at a soul level, and I would easier amputate a vital organ than sever the inexplicable love I already felt for this baby. It was an eternal flame that was not mine to snuff out or remove from the lampstand of my heart through abortion or adoption. But bearing him would mean dying to every dream I’d ever held dear. Or at least putting it on hold indefinitely.
No vet school. No career. No bright future for me. Though my mother helped me in every way she could, we were not rich, and I had to find work. No more esteemed acknowledgement from teachers, but instead, looks of disdain from minimum wage employers. Turns out, though I could manage trigonometry and physics, and get accepted to some really good colleges, I was not very adept in entry level jobs. I managed to complete my Associates degree at a community college while my mom took turns with my best friend watching my son. I went without haircuts and flattering clothes for myself all through my twenties to assure my son had orthopedic shoes and adequate clothing, even a few years at a private school.
I remained a single mother for 7 years working at everything from daycare to home health aide, cook, waitress, and cashier. I went back to church and sought restoration that never felt full or genuine among people, though complete with God. But I learned to lead a quiet life, to work with my hands and mind my own business, and after some time, the Lord brought a godly, nurturing man into my life. My son and I were no longer alone.
What I learned through this sometimes bitter, sometimes sweet experience was the value of faith, the treasure of life, the gift of inner strength. I had a son I adored, and now after being alone and struggling for so long, a faithful and kind husband, too. The sin that should have been my destruction became a work of miraculous grace in the hands of the Lord, and worked for my blessing instead.
My son grew up to have many talents. The Lord blessed his life more than money could have. Though I couldn’t afford music lessons or fancy opportunities for him, the Lord provided mentors and open doors. He plays guitar and piano and composes his own music, and he has a gift with computers as well. He designed the cover of my debut novella Bachelor Buttons. I can’t begin to count all the ways my son has enriched my life. He and his wife are expecting my first grandchild this summer. God has been good.
Kathleen L. Maher’s novella Bachelor Buttons releases May 1 as part of a Civil War sesquicentennial collection by Helping Hands Press. She won the 2012 ACFW Genesis contest, and finaled in several others since 2009. Represented by Terry Burns of Hartline Literary Agency, Kathleen blogs about New York State history. She and her husband live in a 100-year-old farmhouse in upstate NY with their two younger children, two Newfoundland dogs and a tuxedo cat.
Thanks so much for sharing with my readers, Kathleen.
Readers, Kathleen is giving away a copy of her book to one commentator. To read more about it click here. Leave a comment by June 11th at 5:00 PM to be entered. (FYI, her book gets great reviews)