This is something I wrote several years ago but it is so true still today…unfortunately. I struggle with trusting with God. Just this past weekend I was in a bad mood because I wasn’t seeing God working in my life.
For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him. Philippians 2:13 NLT
God is AT WORK within us.
Work, as in a verb not a noun.
When we work we are moving to attain a goal, we are not still. Even if we sit at a desk we are doing something (hopefully).
That is what God does, He is at work, moving within us, never still, never okay with where we are but moving us in His direction, or trying to. We can get in the way, we can fight but we feel the fight don’t we? We feel it’s hard, something isn’t right. That is because God is pulling us in the right direction and we are trying to pull in the wrong direction. Oh, Lord, we are sorry, so sorry for trying to play tug-of-war with you.
I realized this morning I have gotten into a place where I don’t trust God again. I don’t trust him to give me His best, or His best won’t be enough for me. How silly, but can you relate?
My prayers haven’t really been prayers at all but more of a taunting, “I know you can change these circumstances so why don’t you do it?” Do you see something wrong with that line of questioning? I do. It’s more of a “prove-it” attitude than “I believe you” attitude.
I think about the things I ask for and I am amazed that God can and will do more than that, I just can’t even imagine (His Word tells us this). I think I have a pretty active imagination so how can you top it? Of course I am talking about the Creator of the universe so I guess He can.
Father, I am humbled and in awe of You today. Lord, work in us, keep moving us toward Your goal and if we are holding on to something that opposes Your goal we release it to You right now. We feel the release and we dance in freedom. Thank You for never giving up on our stubborn hearts. We love You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.