Genesis 5020

My Story for His Glory

I Found A Lump July 13, 2018

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It was about six weeks ago now.

When I first felt it I felt like I was going to vomit, it couldn’t be. I seriously felt sick to my stomach. I had to stop feeling it. And I did for a few weeks. I ignored it hoping it would go away.

When I finally had the courage to see if it was still there about two weeks later, it was.

My husband and I had a vacation planned to Mackinac Island to celebrate our 20th anniversary so I decided to wait until after that to make an appointment. I didn’t want bad news and be consumed with it on our vacation.

Let me tell you the first lie the enemy whispered in my ear:

“You lost all this weight because you have had a cancer the whole time, not because you have changed the way you eat and are exercising.”

I almost laugh now at the craziness of that lie. But at the time it seemed like it could be true.

The day after my vacation I called the doctor and I got an appointment for the next day.

I honestly hadn’t had any freak out moments up to that point. I kept telling myself, “You don’t know what it is. There is no reason to freak out until you have answers.”

The night before my appointment I had a freak out. I laid in bed unable to sleep. I started to recite scripture but still my mind started to play scenes in my head of telling my kids I have cancer, how my life will look different. Would I be able to direct the musical? I started thinking of friends who had breast cancer I could reach out to.

I didn’t tell too many people about this because I didn’t want anyone to worry. I knew my parents would worry and they didn’t need that. I only told a couple of friends who I do my Bible Study with.

I laid in bed and cried that night. I finally grabbed my iPad and researched lumps. I found that only 20% of lumps are actually cancer, and that they are usually not circular. Mine felt pretty circular and now I had an 80% chance of it not being cancer.

I went to my appointment. My doctor said she thought it was a cyst but there was no way to know for sure until we had a mammogram.

We scheduled an appointment for the next week.

Again, I didn’t worry all week long but when I got in the car to go I was nervous and that is why I wrote the blog I wrote two weeks ago and shared those songs about fear. God is so good, giving me those songs as I drove to this appointment.

I will say the ladies that did my mammogram and then ultrasound were very serious, but nice. I was getting worried again as I sat there. This seemed all so real. I could have cancer.

The radiologist came into the room and looked serious too. He said he was pretty sure it was a fibroid something or other (can’t remember the name). But the only way to know for sure was to have a biopsy.

I went into another room and met the consultant, a wonderful woman. She was so kind. We chatted about the Upper Peninsula, which I love, her family lives up there.

But as she was telling me what to expect when had the biopsy she told me the results take about 3-5, so I didn’t have to wait too long. Then she said with confidence, “But you don’t have to worry. You’re not worried, are you?”

I started crying then with the relief that washed over me. I felt her words were prophetic, I didn’t have to worry.

I called Patrick and started crying again, overwhelmed but the kindness I had been shown and knowing that ultimately it came from the Lord.

The next week I had my biopsy. Patrick went with me. We prayed before hand. I felt pretty peaceful.

When the doctor came into the room he looked at my ultrasound and said, “Oh, this isn’t anything to worry about.”

Do you sense a theme?

He was so kind, as were the nurses.

After he was done I had to stay there while a nurse held compression. We started talking and wouldn’t you know God would show off some more? Through our conversation it came out that she was a Christian.

Honestly, after that appointment I was pretty confident that this wasn’t cancer and two days later I got the news that it wasn’t.

Jesus was so present through this whole thing. He just kept showing up through people and music and circumstances. He is so good.

I also needed this wake up call in my spirit as I have been sort of asleep for a long time. I needed to a reminder of God’s goodness, that He is always there, not matter what the results would be.

I share this because I want woman to know that 80% of lumps aren’t cancer (from what I read online, this could be off of course). As I started telling others what I was going through so many other women told me that had lumps too.

Why aren’t we talking about this?

We only hear about the women who find a lump and it’s cancer. Let’s start talking about the lumps we find that aren’t cancer so we don’t freak out. Yes, not everyone will get the news I did but most will.

Also, I found my lump through a self exam, which I don’t do enough, it was completely random that I even did it when I did it six weeks ago. I encourage you to do your self exams.

So ladies (and men, if you are reading, encourage your wife to take care of herself), I’m telling you, I’m sharing my story, most lumps aren’t cancer.

Any other stories out there?

 

 

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How Is Your Fear Level? June 29, 2018

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Yesterday I got in my car to drive somewhere I really didn’t want to go. As soon as I turned up K-Love this song started playing that I had never heard. They never said the name of the song but I was sure I would remember enough to figure it out.

I didn’t. But I really needed to hear it again. It spoke about getting rid of fear and the place I was driving could easily lead me down a path of fear.

The song I didn’t know was quickly followed by “Whom Shall I Fear.” Which I know well. I sang along loud and proud.

But when I got home I wanted to hear the first song. Thank goodness for Google. I remembered partial lyrics and I got it!

It’s called “The Breakup Song” by Francesca Battistelli. Love it!

Eventually I will share where I was driving and why these songs where so important. But I don’t have all the answers yet. When I do have a complete story I will share.

In the meantime, how is your fear level? Is there something you are fearing? Do you struggle with fear regularly?

Listen to this song.

Then if you still need some more reminders I will link some other great songs to strengthen you. Remember God has this. We are His.

The Breakup Song

Whom Shall I Fear

No Longer Slaves

Fear Is A Liar If you have never watched this video do it, have a tissue with you. Wow.

 

What a Beautiful Name February 11, 2017

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By Joe Jansen

By Joe Jansen

I’m loving this song right now. Just a great reminder of the power in the name of Jesus. Hope you enjoy it.

Click here to listen.

 

Heavenly Storehouses December 30, 2016

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 By Arto Marttinen

By Arto Marttinen

“Have you entered the storehouses of the snow or seen the storehouses of the hail?” Job 38:22 NIV

I’m currently reading through a daily devotional (which I will be reviewing soon) that talked about the verse above. The author said she believed not only are there storehouses of snow and hail but also good things, like love and grace.

I entered into a time of prayer after reading that and had a beautiful encounter with Jesus.  Below is what I saw and wrote down after the encounter:

Papa has storehouses, massive warehouses for each and every person!! They are labeled: LOVE, GRACE, MERCY, HOPE, FAITH, BLESSINGS, GIFTS. 

At first I thought the storehouses He showed me were to be shared with the world but He said every person has their own set of storehouses. (How cool is that???) He said mine have barely been touched, as is the case with most people. 

So, my question is what is keeping us from allowing those storehouses to fall on us? I think we get too busy, or we don’t think we are worthy so when we see them starting to open up we dodge them. Why? I have no idea, we are a messy bunch down here on earth.

I don’t know about you but I want those storehouses to fall down on me daily. I don’t want to get to Heaven someday and see my storehouses loaded up and I never got to enjoy those things that I could only have here on earth.

In 2017 I challenge each and ever one of us to open our hearts and minds and eyes to receive from Heaven. Let the storehouses open and fall on you.

Who’s with me?

 

 

Is This Legal?? November 4, 2016

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By Stefan Kunze

By Stefan Kunze

I apologize in advance, this is a long one 🙂

“Is this legal?”

I was asked that question in my classroom as I introduced my students to a new “winter” song for their concert. It’s a song that uses “Go Tell It On the Mountain” in it.

Unfortunately, this isn’t the first time a student asked me if it was legal to sing a Christian song. I also had a student say they were worried people might be offended because we are singing a Christian song.

Now, let me tell you that before this concert we did a Halloween concert were we sang a medley of songs from the musical Sweeney Todd. If you’re familiar with this musical you will know how dark and gruesome it is. We sang songs about murder. And NO ONE, not one student, voiced a concern that someone might be offended by that.

Hmmm, interesting don’t you think? I mean if anything would be illegal it should be singing about a murderer not someone who was murdered. But no one questioned it.

You might be wondering why I would even teach that music. Well, the answer is the same for why I can teach Christian music.

I didn’t show my students the movie, I didn’t talk about what Sweeney Todd actually did, I didn’t lecture them on his justification for killing people. I simply taught the music because it is challenging and stretches my students to try new things. It is complex music, it gave the kids a chance to sing in many different arrangements. But I don’t embrace the message of those songs.

The same is true with any song with a faith message. I don’t preach the message, I’m not telling the students that this is what I believe (unless they ask). I’m not showing them a movie about the song and proclaiming the message. I’m not looking up the scripture the song references. I am teaching the music because it is going to be challenging for my students, it has some great rhythmic play and vocal back and forth between parts. It is in a gospel style that we don’t sing too much and it’s acapella.

So, is it legal to sing a song about Jesus in public school? It is legal to sing a song about a murderer in public school?

The answer to both is yes, as long as there is musical reasons for teaching it and I’m not promoting the story behind either.

But why is the Christian song the only one questioned?

Because the enemy is getting a hold of our children and we aren’t teaching them any different. He is lying to them and as parents we need to teach our children the truth. It is okay for a music teacher to teach songs with a Christian message as long as it is balanced with other music that isn’t Christian and the teacher isn’t inserting his or her own beliefs.

Since one out of five songs I am teaching is Christian I don’t think I’m inserting my beliefs.

If we eliminated all faith based songs we would be loosing a rich history of music. Most songs sung by slaves have a faith base. Isn’t that part of our history?

It is becoming so evident that darkness is trying to push out any light at all. We need to be teaching our kids so when they go into school they can stand for what is right and they can be light.

If it ever becomes illegal to teach some great music that also happens to be Christian then I guess that’s when it’s time for me to stop teaching.

 

 

Obedience=Faith October 28, 2016

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 By Ben White

By Ben White

I know my Friday posts have not really existed for quite awhile and I can’t even promise you now that I can be consistent. Friday sneaks up on me and I don’t want to write something just to say I did. I want my post to have meaning and depth for you.

So, I will share with you what I feel God has been trying to get me to see over the last couple of months.

I have learned: Be obedient even in the spiritually dry times. 

That’s where I have been for about two months now. I am struggling to get up early in the morning to be with Jesus. I have even skipped a couple of mornings because I chose sleep. I feel this way because I don’t feel like anything is moving in me. I feel like I am going through the motions of what I’m “supposed” to do and I hate it.

Now, there have been a few times when I felt God stirring in me but for the most part I’m going through the motions.

But what God is showing me through my continued obedience is that my faith is stronger then my flesh. I keep waking up and getting in the word  and trying to pray because I have faith that God will move in me. That something is going on that I’m not seeing. A greater purpose is growing in me.

I  have no idea what that is. But I believe it is something.

Why do I share this?

I have to believe I’m not the only one who feels spiritually dry. Maybe you feel like you are going through the motions of your faith. I’m here to tell you to keep being obedient. If Jesus has called you to do something keep doing it even if it doesn’t feel like He is meeting you.

He is. He is meeting you there. And He will keep meeting you there.

A shift is coming. I sense it. A shift is coming for me and it is coming for you too.

This is a time to show your faith. Remain faithful, don’t give up. Keep pressing in and eventually His spirit will overwhelm you.

I’m believing it for me and I’m believing it for you.

Stay obedient.

 

 

What’s Your Genesis 5020? March 13, 2015

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I haven’t asked in a while so I thought I would put it out there again. I am always looking for people to share their stories on this blog. That’s why I started this blog in the first place. I wanted this to be a place for people to come forward and share their stories about how God used something that could have destroyed their lives for good.

So, what’s your story?

You have no idea how when you share you heal and bring healing into other people’s lives. Someone, somewhere needs to hear YOUR story. Will you give God the glory and come forward and share with others?

Some people won’t believe in Jesus until they see our scars…Thomas didn’t.

Email your stories at: 5020genesisstories (at) gmail (dot) com